Giving In? Not giving up. #R2BT

for this moment

On Thursday night past, I gave in to temptation.  I drank a pint of beer.  And I did that because I could not resist an opportunity to celebrate an accomplishment.   I needed to feel, fully, the achievement of taking the stage for opening night in a theatrical production.

The play itself is an emotional torrent, a deep dive into the pool of human suffering and the perseverance of hope in the wake of tragedy.   And I’ve swam around in that for two hours a night, for three months of rehearsal and two dress rehearsals and four shows (with four more to come).  I do this for free and call it fun.

Make no mistake, it is often more fun than you can imagine.  It is also a great deal of communal effort.  So when that play was done, and all the effort and the audience spent, I went to a local watering hole with my new friends and just… couldn’t hold back the urge to ‘cheers’ our collective success.

I have to say that I was bitten by remorse afterwards.

Well, I’ve learned, via my success of staying dry at the SuperBowl, and in getting sudsy last Thursday, that I often use alcohol to amplify emotion.

Triumph, pain and pondering – for whatever reason, that’s what I do.  And in the long go, I have some thinking to do.   In the moment, I made a choice that made sense for a few minutes.  In retrospect, I wish I could take it back….but at the very least, I learned something.

Going forward, I will get right back on the horse, recouping my willpower to learn additional lessons.

knocked down, back up

– Vincent Lombardi

Author: Doug Ironside RN

Doug is a Registered Nurse (PHN) with the Simcoe Muskoka District Health Unit.

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